I feel so beat up.
Long story short, my professor sent out an e-mail on BBVista something about group presentations for tomorrow (or rather...today in 5 hours), but I don't think my group knows that I am in their group because I got no e-mails from them in the past five days since he sent this thing out. And I don't know any names of the people in my group, but even if I did, it wouldn't matter because I never check BBVista and so I didn't even find out about this assignment until now. FIVE. HOURS. BEFORE. CLASS. This is the only class I've ever really had to use BBVista at all so I'm not used to having to check it, but I know that's no excuse.
And this isn't even the most of my problems. It's just one example among many that I'm just clueless and oblivious to what's going around me in school. Thesis is due in two weeks and what have I done, exactly? All these ideas but no where close to being finished. I don't even know if I'll be able to graduate, and that freaks me out. How will I explain to my parents? What do I even say?
I feel so miserable, as I always do when it comes to school, and I'm so overwhelmed by the amount of work I've piled up for myself. The next two weeks are going to be grueling and painful, and I just can't find the motivation to work. I don't know what to do. I feel so weak and sad...and tired. I'm just tired all the time.
Lost sheep.
Long story short, my professor sent out an e-mail on BBVista something about group presentations for tomorrow (or rather...today in 5 hours), but I don't think my group knows that I am in their group because I got no e-mails from them in the past five days since he sent this thing out. And I don't know any names of the people in my group, but even if I did, it wouldn't matter because I never check BBVista and so I didn't even find out about this assignment until now. FIVE. HOURS. BEFORE. CLASS. This is the only class I've ever really had to use BBVista at all so I'm not used to having to check it, but I know that's no excuse.
And this isn't even the most of my problems. It's just one example among many that I'm just clueless and oblivious to what's going around me in school. Thesis is due in two weeks and what have I done, exactly? All these ideas but no where close to being finished. I don't even know if I'll be able to graduate, and that freaks me out. How will I explain to my parents? What do I even say?
I feel so miserable, as I always do when it comes to school, and I'm so overwhelmed by the amount of work I've piled up for myself. The next two weeks are going to be grueling and painful, and I just can't find the motivation to work. I don't know what to do. I feel so weak and sad...and tired. I'm just tired all the time.
Lost sheep.
Labels: deadlines, fears, finals, frustrations, ugh, weariness
Written on Tuesday, May 29, 2012 at 1:57 AM
by tini
to sleep or not to sleep
The second project for VSCM VI is tea packaging, and the crit is on Monday (technically tomorrow, but it still feels like Saturday...)
It is currently 5 am, Sunday morning, which is like 6 am because of daylight savings. I have decided to leave Nesbitt to go home and get my 5 hours of sleep before church service, and I hope I don't regret it. I've listed out the things I have to do tomorrow, and I know that tomorrow night is going to be a long night. On the plus side, I don't have to go to book design tomorrow, which means I get to sleep right after the critique. I just hope I'm not too ambitious or optimistic about my work ethic or how much work I can get done in 14 hours before crit time. The hours just fly by when you're doing design work! I've pulled all nighters every day this week since last Sunday, except for Friday night, when I took a nap before FNL and didn't wake up until the next morning. It's definitely taken a toll on my mind...I have a hard time thinking of words I want to say or even reading smoothly, and my attention span has definitely gotten a lot shorter.
Anywho, yeah, I hope I can get all my work done tomorrow night. It's not even I hope, it's more like I NEED to, otherwise I am going to fail this project and I will have done all this work for nothing. So yeah, I hope I don't regret passing up opportunity to pull an all-nighter tonight for 5 (a little less because I still have to walk home...) hours of sleep. ...I also really hope these types of trade-offs only exist in college and I will never have to make such dramatic and lame choices in the real world.
Written on Sunday, November 6, 2011 at 2:00 AM
by tini