TRANSPARENCIES

I feel so beat up.

Long story short, my professor sent out an e-mail on BBVista something about group presentations for tomorrow (or rather...today in 5 hours), but I don't think my group knows that I am in their group because I got no e-mails from them in the past five days since he sent this thing out. And I don't know any names of the people in my group, but even if I did, it wouldn't matter because I never check BBVista and so I didn't even find out about this assignment until now. FIVE. HOURS. BEFORE. CLASS. This is the only class I've ever really had to use BBVista at all so I'm not used to having to check it, but I know that's no excuse.

And this isn't even the most of my problems. It's just one example among many that I'm just clueless and oblivious to what's going around me in school. Thesis is due in two weeks and what have I done, exactly? All these ideas but no where close to being finished. I don't even know if I'll be able to graduate, and that freaks me out. How will I explain to my parents? What do I even say?

I feel so miserable, as I always do when it comes to school, and I'm so overwhelmed by the amount of work I've piled up for myself. The next two weeks are going to be grueling and painful, and I just can't find the motivation to work. I don't know what to do. I feel so weak and sad...and tired. I'm just tired all the time.

Lost sheep.

Labels: deadlines, fears, finals, frustrations, ugh, weariness